Crabby Pants

No Sleep + Carrying a Heavy Human Around + Raging Pregnancy Hormones = Very emotional and crabby Grace .. watch out!

I really haven't had any complaints my whole pregnancy and if this is the worst of it, well then I'd say I've been pretty fortunate. If you are one of those people who is going to say, "This is a blessing so why is she complaining?" please click the little x now. Trust me, we count our blessings EVERY day and thank God for Poppy and the healthy pregnancy I've had ... but growing this miracle is no easy work, so for once I am going to whine.

I've been EXTREMELY emotional and crabby these last couple weeks .. so if you see Benny, please remind him I'll return to normal someday...maybe. He's a saint for putting up with me and never once complaining about my mood. You wouldn't believe the things that can cause instant tears these days! For example, I don't think he'll ever say, "Wow. I slept so amazing last night" again. Just for the record.

When you go to bed every night knowing that after a few hours of squirming you might get an hour of sleep and then you'll be up for the rest of the night and will watch the sun rise, you dread going to bed. From 8pm on, I'm just praying that I'll be able to at least get a few hours of sleep. My theory for a while was that if I tried to stay awake later, I'd be so tired that I'd surely sleep through the night .. ha. That ended up just meaning I'd sleep even less hours. I had a good week of sleeping a couple weeks ago and I felt like a million dollars .. unfortunately, it was short lived.

The main reasons I can't sleep are due to an excessively itchy belly that NEVER ever stops itching, leg cramps, restless leg syndrome, aching joints, no longer being able to roll over to switch positions without sharp pains, 801 trips to the bathroom, and hot flashes. This weekend I decided to throw a HORRIBLE toothache and some serious tummy aches into the mix - hey, why not?

Yesterday I woke up in the chair at 5:30am after being up since 3 and I couldn't even move because I was in pain. I thought I had to go to the bathroom so I basically stumbled my way there .. once I got there, I was sure I was going to be sick and then I broke out in a terrible sweat. I was in so much pain I wanted to wake Benny up but didn't .. tried to walk around for a little bit and finally just started feeling better. I took my temp. because I felt like I was burning up -- it was 97.4 - ha! I'm not sure what that was all about but it sure was scary.

The number one comment that drives me crazy is, "Well don't expect this to change when baby comes." Trust me, never once have I thought, "Once baby gets here, I'll just sleep all the time. Won't that be nice?!" While I'm sure I don't quite know what kind of sleepless nights we're in for, the fact that babies don't sleep at night is not a foreign concept to me. Hopefully this is just my body's way of preparing me for that and I'll be a pro by then .. ha. At least I won't have to worry about being awake for work for 3 months! The one thing that keeps me going is Poppy is always up with me squirming and kicking away .. that's something that will never grow old and I'll definitely miss when he/she is no longer in my tummy!

Well, now that the sun is coming up .. I suppose I'll get ready for the day and maybe even make the husband a nice breakfast for all he's put up with lately .. orrrr .. I'll drive to McDonalds and let them do the cooking .. a greasy hashbrown sure does sound fantastic right now.

Hopefully you all enjoyed a peaceful, sleep-filled night! :)