Flutterflies

Literally, flutterflies. In my tummy. I suppose the politically correct term would be "quickening." Our little avocado is growing, growing, growing and this week brought along a new sensation -- little tiny flutters in my tummy. I was so excited when I first felt it that I yelled for Benny that he needed to put his hand on my tummy to feel the flutters .. not sure why I thought maybe he'd be able to .. He did put his hand on my tummy but obviously felt nothing and said, "are you sure it's not just gas?" I told him I am sure because a mother knows the difference between gas and baby flutters, and that I also know that I will start feeling them around this time because that's what my nurse sister-in-law and weekly newsletter says. I could tell he still wasn't convinced. I was sitting on the couch and wiggling around trying to get comfortable and finally I just sighed and said, "I cannot get comfortable. I just feel ackward." He laughed and said, "You have a person growing inside of you .. I'm not sure what could be more ackward than that." Good point, husband, good point. This led to some more ackward discussions, but you probably already think we are strange enough so I won't share.

But I experienced a different kind of flutterfly this morning. I was going into the spare bathroom and noticed the nursery was all lit up. The sun was shining through so beautifully and the room literally took my breath away (and not because I had just walked 10 feet). I cried and then stared at it for awhile dreaming about how it won't be long until I'll be spending lots of time in that room with little Poppy. It was a bittersweet moment and I felt the butterflies, the reality of "You're really having a baby!" sink in. From the second the realtor said, "This would make a perfect nursery," it has been my favorite room in the house and I have never thought of it as anything but a nursery. That's why until about a week ago, it hasn't been used for anything other than storage and a place to throw up an air mattress for guests. Pretty soon it will be transformed into the most beautiful nursery for our little Poppy and all his or her little Poppy friends.

And that's why on our Valentine's shopping trip I planned for this weekend (ha!), we will definitely need to check out some baby stuff while we're out and about. I don't know how much longer I can hold off putting my nursery plans into place...

Until next time,
Love & Flutterflies